I talked to one of my friends the other night and I could sense she was under a lot of stress. You can just tell by looking into someone’s eyes, the pain and the upset they feel. Well my thought was to help somehow, in any way I could. So I told her about how I went through a lot in college. It was a rollercoaster. And with everything I’ve experienced, I can say I grew stronger. I told her how growing up I was such a positive person. However, since the beginning of high school, I became such an angry and depressing person that I lost myself in the process. I focused so much on how life threw me in horrible situations and didn’t realize the blessings I was given. Especially in college, I’ve faced some of my toughest trials but I got the help I needed to cope with my situation. In a matter of a summer, I’ve regained so much of my positivity and I am eternally grateful that I feel like myself once again. After talking to her for a while, she told me that she really needed to hear all that. I can only hope I helped her in some way because it’s a terrible feeling to see a friend try to hide her troubles behind a smile, especially when I’ve done the same for years.
In the past couple days, I’ve gotten the reassurance I needed that things will be okay. It’s a remarkable feeling- that feeling where you have full faith that something amazing can potentially happen to you. Yes, it is not a hundred percent guaranteed, yet any sense of doubt is over-shadowed by that faith you have in that situation. Time is on my side for a change. And with time, comes patience. And with patience, endless possibilities. It’s funny. You know that gut feeling you get? I used to never trust it much. Not sure why I went against it a lot. Never really thought about it until now. At this moment, I have a strong gut feeling, unlike anything I’ve felt before and I would be a fool not to trust and go with it this time. I mean, the feeling is put there for a reason right?
Sometimes, it only takes a moment to make you truly believe in something full-heartedly again. That single instance can change everything. And I choose to believe everything happens for a reason.
Giving up is definitely not an option.