|A to the Rice|

Too true. At least for me.

I always seem to get to that point I don’t ever want to see again: the point where I blow up with all the things I’ve wanted needed to say to people. Break downs. Freak outs. Whatever you call them, they’re one of the scariest moments for me. I can’t even fully explain how hard it is to go through something like that. I don’t even know who I am at that point. So, after it happens, the only thing I can do is cry harder because of how frightened I am. I’ve been working on confronting people. However, still easier said than done after this habit has been developing throughout my life. I feel calm now but, what’s to say it won’t happen again tomorrow?

“Each morning we are born again.”- Buddha

Basically, tomorrow is a new day. It’s what you make out of that day. Every single day I’ve been grateful to open my eyes again. I need to knock this stress thing out. There is a good kind of stress but lately, it’s been the bad keeping me from feeling fulfilled and happy. 

Been having such a terrible day today. It’s a bit unbelievable how one thing led to another bad thing happening. I’m just glad I have RAPS tonight. I’m sure that will give me the pick-me-up I need.